Week 20

Today we had the amazing opportunity to find out the gender of our baby!  I woke up at 7 am for a nine am appointment and couldn’t fall back to sleep.  When we got to our appointment, I was so excited and definitely didn’t think it would last an hour and a half but it did!  I loved getting to see our baby again on a screen, it feels like a long distance relationship in a way, I know she is right here in my tummy but it is so amazing seeing her on the screen!  I remember the first screen our tech brought up it was more of what I guess I would call it an aerial view looking down at our baby so we could see the top of her head and her knees and hands and I couldn’t help but think how cute it was that she was so tiny and squished in there.  The first thing our tech said was that she was wiggly, she really didn’t like being poked and prodded, I felt her move a lot more than usual during our visit.  I knew it was called an anatomy scan, I was just a little surprised at how thorough everything was, he looked at her hands, feet, knees, femurs, kidneys, spine, brain, everything.  Of course he did this before he announced gender.  I was trying really hard to be patient, and not say oh it looks like this or that.  At one point Sean said “I saw some balls”.  The tech continued with the anatomy scan and accidently said the words “her”.  Sean immediately piped up and said “So it’s a girl”, the tech confirmed this and even showed us up on the screen and told daddy, “You definitely didn’t see some balls” (laughing)!  

Here is video of her moving, it's short and nothing to crazy, it just blew my mind to see her bring her hands up to her face.   We think she has my nose and her daddy's chin, but she definitely has a while to cook so we'll see when she actually gets here. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EGW1HAwPa74

  I was so happy!  The next thing he did was he pulled up a 3-Dimensional picture of her face.  For some reason I thought this wasn’t going to happen for us, when we had our briefing on having a baby they made it seem like our insurance was covering the bare minimum and I thought that the fancy 3-D ultra sounds were extra.  When he pulled up a 3-dimensional view of her face I was so surprised, and amazed, and wowed.  I was so overcome with emotion and I was trying really really hard to get it together because when I cry from joy even, it isn’t one sweet glistening tear down my cheek, I ugly cry and it’s bad.  I was so surprised by this and we even got to see some video of her being squirmy and bringing her hands up by her face I did start to cry.  It was amazing!   I’m so in love with this little girl already.  I already think she is perfect and beautiful; I am going to be one of the worst biased moms out there.  Not only this, but a few things have been coming to me much more easily now, like what crib to buy and what theme I want her nursery to have and look like. My husband and I still need to discuss names, but I’m feeling more confident in the few we have picked out. 

I was able to share in my joy this evening with my friend Liz.  She just let me tell her all about it and I think as a new mommy I really needed that.  Digital media and texting is awesome, but it takes the joy out of being able to really share things the way we use to.  I’m grateful she listened and shared in my joy tonight we talked about my little girl and Liz’s adopted niece for a long time.  I’m so excited and ready to get shopping! 

My whole life, I wanted girls, and had so many people say that because I was such a girly girl I was going to get all the boys.  I was sort of preparing myself for it to be a boy; I honestly didn’t believe I could get a little girl.  My in laws all have girls and several of my friends have girls, I definitely thought I would get to watch everyone else raise little girls around me and I would never get to be a mother to a girl, and I was becoming ok with it.  I was preparing myself for it to be a boy, and honestly thought it was a boy, this little girl has been so drama free this whole pregnancy (biggest reason I thought it was a boy).  I hope she stays this even tempered the rest of her life, and if not I embrace all the emotional responses that come from raising daughter.  I want to have as many interesting and new experiences with her. It has been fun saying things like my “little girl” and “daughter”.  I remember when I first got married, I had so much fun saying husband, and now it’s kind of the same thing.  Daughter daughter daughter, I have a daughter,  I could say it all day long. I love her so much already and I can’t wait to meet her!