Week 19

One of the biggest reality checks for me is realizing that I am going to be a mommy soon, but it is just as big of a reality check realizing that Sean is going to be a daddy. We have been married for 3 years and before that we dated for 4 years.  He has grown so much from the person I started dating 7 years ago.  Sean has taken on the responsibility of husband beautifully and magnified that  in every sense.  It's been touching to see him prepare for his role as a father.  I feel extremely lucky to have Sean as a partner to raise our baby.  He has also done his fair share of baby research in items to purchase, one night I remember he was on the computer forever looking for just the right stroller, the next morning he showed me which one we were getting, I couldn't argue with him at all because it was exactly what was right for us.  It was a huge relief that he took care of that so now I didn't have to.  He has come with me to every doctors appointment, kept his cool and composure, and calmly reminded me of things I forgot to ask my doctor on occasion.  He is so excited about our baby, and mentions how neat it is going to be all the time.  

Today he was asked to give a talk during sacrament meeting in church.  His topic was righteous fathers, and he mentioned that he was grateful he had the opportunity to study for this as preparation for our baby. I feel so blessed that I get to parent my child with a man who has such a great understanding of his responsibilities and roles as a father in nurturing the spiritual needs of his children and their physical needs.  One of my favorite things he said in his talk was a quote from Howard W. Hunter  "Indeed, one of the greatest things a father can do for his children is to love their mother."  This brings me great comfort coming into the unknown.  Parenthood doesn't look like it is the easiest thing ever, I've seen couples fail at loving one another and as a result have hurt their children.  This scares me, but through his kind words and effort to place his family and gospel first in his life, Sean is constantly reassuring me that he will place the wants and needs of his family above his own.  In concluding his talk Sean mentioned the example of of his own father, that his example of righteousness are memories that he will cherish forever.  

Later in church Sean came to help me in the nursery.  We had a really fun time together.   He did such a great job with the children, he connected with some of them in ways I haven't been able to in the past.

The last half hour he had a book in his had practically the whole time. Seeing how he interacts with children and his nieces has been another big reassurance for what a great father he is going to be. I'm a big believer that everyone has their gifts and contributes differently in their part in the world.  Sean has so many positive traits and qualities that I struggle with.  He is such a patient person, something that I will probably be working on in a really long time,  I know this will come in handy during those first few weeks with a newborn.  I can't say it enough, I feel so lucky to have him embark on this journey with me.

Sean is going to be a great father, he has already exemplified great principles that a good father should have.  Our children are going to be blessed to have him as I have been blessed to have him as a husband.