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Sunday, July 20, 2014

Week 24 Our First Missionary and 3rd Niece


This has been an incredibly blessed week for our family.   On Wednesday, we sent our first missionary out into the field.  Sean's little sister Jenna left for her mission to Lima, Peru.  I didn't get really emotional about it until Sean's mom posted this picture on Facebook with Jenna at the airport ready to leave.

Seriously!  Ah, tears!  That is our little baby Jenna all ready to go on her mission.   When she first got a  boyfriend, Sean said " she can't have a boyfriend yet, what is she 12?" (she was totally 16, allowed to date and all).  When she graduated high school, he said something very similar, that she wasn't old enough to graduate high school, and the same thing when she started college.  Doesn't she embody so many good things in this photo?  She looks like a strong young woman, full of integrity and grace.  It totally threw me off to see her in a dress, I know she was officially a missionary, but for some reason I envisioned her leaving in PJ's (because at 5 am at the airport that is what I would be in!)  The adorable missionary outfit totally through me off, duh, missionary, of course she is leaving in appropriate attire!  I believe families of missionaries are also blessed by their missionary service, I don't feel deserving of it, she is the one making the sacrifices in her life, but I feel as if her desire to serve a mission has already blessed our lives tremendously.  It has been a neat realization for Sean and I that our baby sisters will both be serving missions this year.   They are doing what they can to see that Heavenly Father's work is done and goes forth to the earth, it's time that we step it up and do our part as well.  It has strengthened my testimony of missionary work and service to see these young ladies prepare for their missions.  We try to Skype Sean's mom on Sunday, we have had the opportunity to visit with Jenna and my little sister Kassidy as well.   I feel like during this time we have become closer with them. Jenna and Kassidy were the most supportive of the names we were deciding between for our daughter which we really did appreciate. We would talk to them on their progress in preparing for their missions and things they were doing to prepare spiritually and physically. It has been a cool experience for all of us to be able to be a part of her experience.   We will be patiently awaiting her first letter home!!!

The night before Jenna left, we Skyped with Jenna who was staying with my in laws Ryan and Sammi.  Sammi was due to have her baby about a week after Jenna left, Jenna was really hoping she would go into labor that night.  She didn't go into labor that night, but we did get a new baby a few days after Jenna left!  I'm so excited that my daughter will have a cousin so close to her in age.   We have two other nieces that are fairly close in age, and now our little girl and Quinn will be the same age as well.  Sleep overs at Grandma Ahern's are going to be so much fun with the four of them!  I love little girls, the Ahern's just keep having more of them and it is going to be so much fun when they get older!  I get to meet her in a few weeks when I go to Idaho! Photo credit for baby Quinn: Ryan Ahern.
                                           
She is just making me more baby crazy to hold my little girl!  15 ish weeks left!  

Saturday, July 19, 2014

Week 23



This past weekend we had the opportunity to spend some time with friends Jr. and Dairique.  During the week we had brunch with them, and this Saturday Dairique and I went to the pool on base.  Swimming is a little different now.   My swimming suit is a red one piece, I look like a big red strawberry, I look so funny!   It was nice though, I love swimming, especially now when it feels nice to cool off.  I also picked up a total steal after our swim adventure.  I found a changing table dresser combo on a buy/swap/sell site that compliments the crib we bought our daughter.  I am still so pleased with this!  It definitely was a lucky find!  I can't wait to get started on her nursery.  Jr helped Sean bring it into the house.  Following this we had a barbecue with them and then roasted s'mores as the sun went down.  Our dog Rocco wouldn't come into  the backyard as we were doing this, I thought it was funny, he never lets us out of his sight! When we went camping with him a while back, he would start shaking and we wondered why, we figured it was because he didn't know why we were out so late, but now I think it is because he is afraid of fire.  I believe our pet's know I'm going to have a baby.  One day Rocco followed me religiously everywhere, he even sat on my feet when I sat down.  He has become more protective of me and snugly.  I hope they do ok with a new baby in the house, because right now they are convinced that they are my only babies.
  Our pets are a big part of our lives.  I believe they become a part of your family the day you bring them home.  Rocco came from the Humane Society, and it has taken A LOT of work to get him to his level of mannerisms we have him at now.  He is such a good dog, and wants to be good, he just takes a little bit more time to get there. Sometimes he has a few naughty streaks (he is still an expert counter surfer!) He does really well with children however!  He and my niece Ember were inseparable over our holiday visit.  I'm glad he had her to break him in, and to reassure me that he will be a good little friend for our daughter.  I'm glad that she will have a pet to grow up with so she won't be afraid of animals and hopefully learn to love them as much as Sean and I do.


Thursday, July 17, 2014

Week 22

Independence Day has always been one of my favorite holidays.  The past two years my sister has been in Omaha to help me celebrate the fourth of July and this year I finally had Sean with me.  Sean was given a 4 day weekend and I had the week of the fourth off, we decided to take advantage of these precious days together before our baby arrives and take a little trip for ourselves.  The day before we left for our trip we watched fireworks at the base lake with some friends, and the following morning we woke up bright and early to head to Nauvoo, Illinois.  Our faith is very important to us, in Nauvoo there is a rich history of my ancestors and of the development of our faith, the Latter Day Saint religion. This is one reason why it is a popular visiting spot for tourists, it also happens to be really beautiful and peaceful there.  I had been there three times as a child but Sean had never been there.  It is fairly close to where we live, we have had the intention of going since we moved here and decided it was next on our travel list when the opportunity arose.  

With it being 5 hours away, I was grateful we decided to stop on the way there at a car show in Des Moines.  We saw a series of old vintage cars on the road and we were wondering if there was a car show nearby, we saw several of them pulling into the fairgrounds so we followed and hoped it would be something worth seeing.


 It was quite spectacular.   I love anything romanticized and vintage, I dream of owning a restored vintage car one day, particularly that blue convertible I have pictured up top.  Maybe Sean will get it as a 40th birthday present.  Sean is much more knowledgeable about cars in general than I am, I think they are beautiful, he has other reasons he finds them fascinating.  We don’t ever deviate from the plan when traveling long distances, but being pregnant has shown to have it’s advantages, I’m so glad we chose to do something out of the ordinary to “take a break” from the road, because this was the biggest car show we have ever been to.

We were there a little over 2 hours and didn't even get to see all that there was to see. It was quite overwhelming.  It really had the spirit of Independence Day there as well, there is something incredibly nostalgic about visiting these old cars and the stories behind them, reminiscing about how far they have come as well as our country, plus I have been craving fair food like crazy and there were several options to choose from.
It was really hard to pick, but the foot long corn dog won along with the coke soda pop that I allowed myself (hadn't had one since I became pregnant and I love them!) Sean ate a brat, it was already a great fourth and it wasn't even noon yet.  I was already really grateful to have Sean with me on this day, last year he was deployed and the year before he was gone on TDY.  It was fun stumbling in on something that we both really enjoyed, with it being so unexpected and we didn't even realize how big it was we were sort of thrown back and amazed with the whole event.  If we ever go to Nauvoo again, I think we will break the trip up and plan on doing something in Des Moines, it definitely didn't feel like it took as long getting there as it did coming back.


Once we got back on the road, we made it to Nauvoo in about 3 hours.  We first stopped at the visitors center to see what was going on in the area that weekend.  We decided to go to old Nauvoo and tour the old buildings.  We visited the cultural hall, the family living center where the Senior LDS missionaries are demonstrating old skills and crafts from the pioneer days, the Skoville bakery, the tinsmith, the gunsmith, and the brickyard.  I had been in the cultural hall before to watch plays, but I had never been up to the top to see the dance area, from this place you can see a remarkable view of the temple through the windows.
 There was also a quilt display in this building, a woman donated a family quilt that made it across the ocean from Europe and across the plains to Salt Lake.  It was over a hundred years old and looked so good, it made me feel pretty bad about the one Sean's grandma gave us for our wedding, I don't think we have shown it the care it deserves, and definitely not quite that excellently to make it last a hundred years or more!  I love visiting all of the re-enactment shops in old Nauvoo, it demonstrates how simply people once lived and how hard they had to work every single day, there simply were no lazy days if you wanted to eat.  Once everything closed down, we got dinner at the Nauvoo Hotel.  I'm not really big on buffets, I actually sort of really dislike them, I've come to make an exception during pregnancy.  They are totally cool when pregnant.  Usually we don't eat enough to make it worth the money and there is something so informal about them, but on this trip, during this particular point in my pregnant life, this buffet did appeal to me.  It was pretty good, would I ever eat there not pregnant?  Probably not,  but the point is I am, and I'm particularly good at eating abundantly right now and I enjoyed it.  

Following dinner  made it to our camp site at Camp Nauvoo.  You can camp in Nauvoo for $5 dollars a night per person in a tent.  The cheapest hotel we could find was for $80 dollars a night, we were all over the camping idea! I've been wanting to go camping for quite some time, and even though this wasn't the camping I was use to, it was something.  I don't think camping counts unless it's in the wilderness, but considering my size, I was sort of glad we got our fill of camping for the summer in a not so wild place.  There was a nice clean, shower house, and an electrical box by our tent (so convenient for charging cell phones)!  We were pretty spoiled and I thought it was funny.

 We weren't allowed to have a fire unless it was elevated off of the ground in a fire pit.  I thought the whole ordeal was funny and "easy" in comparison to what we usually do, until it was time to go to bed and sleep on the ground.  This was one of those times I shouldn't have been trying to make a point to the universe that camping doesn't count unless you sleep on the ground.  An air mattress would have been a great idea, a cot an even better one, what we have are these really thin little foam mattresses that fill slightly with air.  We slept on rocky ground about 2 summers ago and I thought they were the coolest mattresses ever because I slept fine that night.  Well our first night camping was quite miserable for me.  Parts of me are just heavier than they were two summers ago camping.  My hip bones and shoulder bones dug into the ground and I woke up several times throughout the night trying to get comfortable. I woke up so sore the next morning, talk about a humbling experience and trying to connect with the pioneers.  I don't know how those women did it!  I can't stand it when people whine on camping trips, so I felt like the biggest loser telling my husband that this was a "never again!" situation.  However, the following night we had an extra sleeping bag Sean layered over the mattress and it saved my life.  I slept fine our second night and I didn't wake up a million times and I wasn't really sore in the morning!  So that was a win!  You can camp when pregnant, or at least five months pregnant!
I'm not sure if I'm brave enough to attempt it again past that point, but I go back on my "never again" statement.  It was so much more fun than staying in a hotel.  You have the best conversations around slowly burning embers before officially calling it a night.  We think camp Nauvoo would be the coolest place to have a family reunion, there is a big indoor lodge for big gatherings, cabins that are $11 a night per person, a big field for games, a play ground, and a volleyball court.  They even provide fire wood and the customer service was awesome.








Day 2, we woke up to a cloudy morning with rain on the forecast. It was super humid outside.  We started out our morning at the temple.  We decided that next time we go to Nauvoo,  we want to start off the vacation with a trip to temple first.  It sets such a positive tone for the day and week.  I love this temple, the architecture is so beautiful and even though the spirit is the same in all temples, this one has something special about it.  There had to have been something special about this day, because it seems like the weather always acts up on days that happen to be very special for us, like our wedding day and various anniversaries.  We came out of the temple and it was raining.  Sean went to go get the car, while he did I was able to enjoy the beautiful view of the Mississippi and enjoy standing in this little nook.












Following the temple we went to visit Carthage Jail, where Joseph Smith was held prisoner and was martyred.  Even though the weather was crazy, our car was blowing back and forth on the road, we were at such peace with this day.  The spirit just carried on to this visit.   There is such a special spirit in Nauvoo and at Carthage.  When we arrived it was raining, we watched a video on Joseph Smith, his life and what he has done for humanity.  Following the video we toured the jail, it still had fairly authentic architecture from the time when it held him there, the old wavy windows, keys, and even bars.  I'm grateful we had the opportunity to make it to Carthage, I definitely think it was good to supplement it with our visit to the temple that morning.


 The rain had stopped, we decided to get some pictures of the outside of the temple because we didn't have to opportunity to do so because the weather was so bad when we left the temple earlier.   The weather was perfect when we came back to get pictures.  While we were taking pictures we met another couple who had just left the temple, they were on a road trip across the United States, they were taking advantage of a move and taking their time getting to their new home.  Wouldn't that be amazing?  I think it would be so awesome to do something like that.  I really would much rather fly, but you miss out on so many amazing things along the way to your destination when flying.  If I had to move a long ways away, I think the best way to go about it would be to take your time, and enjoy what there was to see along the way.  
They took this picture of Sean and I for us, we saw them a few other times around Nauvoo that day.  


We spent the rest of the day looking in old shops for books and pictures for ourselves and our new baby. We purchased a cardboard book about the Savior for her, it really is a beautiful little book, there are paintings by Gregg Olsen inside and follows the primary song If The Savior Stood Beside Me.  We also got custard at the ice cream shop there, I don't know if it is the sugar rush or because she can taste what is in the amniotic fluid now, but she goes nuts for sweets, particularly ice cream.  She moves so much after I eat something yummy.  I think it is the cutest.



There were a few things in Old Nauvoo we wanted to see before we ate dinner, we went to a few more places, we visited the blacksmith where we got Prairie rings and we also had the opportunity to tour Brigham Young's home.  Following this we visited the Smith family cemetery.  I had never been there before, it was in a really beautiful location right along the Mississippi River.


After eating dinner at our camp site, we went to to the play Rendezvous, it is put on by the Senior Missionaries, I remember seeing it as a child and loved it.  I was worried Sean would be bored, but he laughed quite a bit.  Following Rendezvous we stopped to see the last half of the dress rehearsal for the Nauvoo British Pageant.  One of the plays was outside and one was inside.  I would like to see the pageant in it's entirety outside when there isn't lightning and thunder going on, from what we did see it was quite spectacular.


That evening we went back to our campsite and made s'mores with a fire made in our fire pit.  We went to bed, and woke up early in hopes of figuring out what time church was.  There was a group of LDS kids from Canada staying at our camp site and they were all getting ready in the shower house, I asked them what time church was and they let us know.  Sean and I assumed that there would be several people there, but we did not expect this.  There were over 1,500 people at sacrament meeting.  It was bigger than stake conferences I have been to.  The ward handled the sacrament with such reverence, especially with that many people there.  Sean and I sat in the farthest row in the back, on the stage.  It was the last thing we did in Nauvoo, we were filled with the spirit as we left to come home.  On our way out we stopped to get one more picture with the temple.  I love it there and hope we can make it back soon.







Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Week 21


Before I get any further along in my pregnancy and totally eat these words, I guess I better get this out there. I didn't think that I would love being pregnant, but I sort of do.  I’m not sure if I will be this optimistic at 39 weeks when my feet are swollen and I can barely walk, I hope I am, but for today I’m really loving this. At 5 months pregnant, I know I at least like more than half of the experience.  If tomorrow I wake up and it's completely miserable, it's only 4 more months (plus a few weeks), which is crazy!  I've been a part of a lot of experiences for 4 month time periods, it's  practically one semester in college, and it isn't that much time, and looking at the past 5 months, which I have loved, I'm sure I'm going to enjoy these upcoming 4 months as well.  I love being pregnant. I honestly thought I wouldn't like it at all. I thought pregnancy looked awful and I was not really looking forward to it.   I don’t like sharing, I don’t like being reminded that my body has limitations, and I was really stressing about vanity coming into it.  Those that know me well, know that I looked at pregnancy as a miserable life step, I’m a little embarrassed by my past expectations, I’m not saying I would have done it sooner, but I wouldn't have come into it with such a negative outlook.  It’s the most amazing thing I've ever done.  

First, I love being able to provide this service so my daughter can enter this world.  I never thought of it this way, I don’t see it so much as “sharing” anymore even though that is technically what I am doing from a worldly perspective.  It reminds me that my body was a gift, lent to me from Heavenly Father and that it wasn't really mine to begin with.  Even though this is a physical bodily thing, it has helped me develop spiritually in ways I can’t even begin to describe. 

  Secondly, I am limited by what I am able to do physically in some aspects, I can’t ride roller coasters, ride a horse, and several of my dance moves I can’t do anymore because it could harm my baby, but I barely notice these limitations.  Instead of viewing pregnancy as a set of limitations on what I can’t do, I am amazed by what my body is able to do right now.  In some ways I am not even limited at all, my body’s capacity to perform its duties has been magnified. I understand now why people call a baby a miracle, because it truly is.  I was just amazed at how she was developing during my ultra sound from the first one at 8 weeks to the next at 20 weeks.  My body is not limited, it was granted the opportunity to do something more, something greater.  

Lastly, I really thought I would have serious self-esteem issues during pregnancy.  I was so focused on not getting chubby that I was losing sight of the big picture.   I didn't think I would feel pretty until maybe a year after my baby was born, after I had gotten some of my body back.  I don’t just feel cute, or pretty, but I feel truly beautiful.  It’s the first time in my life I can say that confidently without feeling embarrassed or like I’m being self-indulgent.  I’m also alright with whatever outcome needs to happen in terms of vanity in order to get her here.  I’m rubbing my skin with oils to prevent stretch marks, and I’m exercising because it makes me feel good and it’s encouraged by my doctor, but if I have stretch marks after this whole process is over, it isn't the end of the world.  If I’m chubbier than I've ever been, it also isn't the end of the world.   My husband loves me, and I was a little insecure coming into this that he wouldn't be as attracted to me pregnant, which is completely ridiculous because now that I’m experiencing it he hasn't done anything to demonstrate feelings of that nature.  He still tells me I’m beautiful and that he loves me maybe even more so now.  I love this and even though it seems like nine months is a long time, it is flying by.  

 I wish I had more time to enjoy all the little things.  I love feeling her move, Sean has been able to feel her move from the outside, he will lay his head on my tummy or when he puts his hand on my tummy he will feel her move then, these moments are some of the best life has to offer.   I’m not sure if it’s the hormones, this new found love for my daughter, or a combination of the two, but I feel happy.  It’s a different “happy” feeling than the other happy moments in my life; it is just a general state of being.  I attribute it to pregnancy.  I’m grateful I have the opportunity to become somebody’s mommy.  It’s been the most fulfilling thing I have ever or could ever do.